Never Give Up!

Unfortunately, its not pounds that i lost. its me that I lost...again! I was doing pretty good so I am mad at myself now that i havent progressed. I even had a boost with a nice stomach flu but then I got all lost in my head and in my busy stuff and I weigh 177 again. Ugh. I have already started back...writing in my food journal...working out daily...but this up and down is way worse on me than just staying stagnant. I need something to keep me accountable. Its so hard to do this on my own. I would go back to WW but I DONT WANNA!!! lol.

The Spring semester is almost over. I should be all done by May 17. I want to go right back to classes immediately but just for summer sessions which might eat up half the time of a real semester. I am so torn between pushing ahead in my schooling or just taking the summer off to focus on my weight loss. With the extra time I'd have with no classes I could really focus on nothing more than myself.

I guess I will get back to you on the plan but it will be soon because I have to register the classes by monday the 12 or tuesday.

Phew! Its been a little longer than I wanted it to be before I update. I just got over a nasty stomach virus that wiped me out so badly. I havent been able to weigh in (scale is locked up safe and sound in the trunk of the car) but its better that way. I probably lost a few with that virus but it wont be much. Enough to make my next weigh-in a little sweeter I hope ;) LOL. It hit me Sunday and everyday I feel much better. I havent gotten back to working out yet though. I promise that I will get started this weekend!

The weather has been so lovely this week making my outlook on weight loss much brighter. That good feeling that you get when Spring begins to peek in once in a while...to me its the same feeling as weight loss progress. So capture that feeling of new Spring and hold on to it and use it as inspiration. Thats what you want to feel EVERYDAY :)

enjoy!

Its been a week that I have been doing everything I know is good for me and I have weighed in. I have lost probably a pound. 177, for the record. I guess its good to be going in the right direction. I usually get pretty tripped up over how long this progress takes. I am trying to not think about it too much and just keep pushing. I will get there eventually and slow weight loss is better. I dont want to weigh in again for a few weeks. I am going to stash the scale away in the car to make that easier. Its hard for me...I look for results all the time but that makes me give up sometimes because it doesnt happen fast enough.

What am I doing? I am eating normal foods, making the healthiest choices possible. I am counting my calories up to 1500 per day. I am walking on the treadmill up to 3 times a week and doing a strength video 3 days a week. I journal my food and my exercise. Thats about it.

So if I can keep myself away from the scale my next weigh in should be in about 3 weeks. Maybe even on a friday. I'll probably check in before that though especially if things get tough.

This is awful! I just finished trying on a pair of jeans that I was able to wear about a year ago. Now, granted, they werent loose or anything back then but right now, the button and the button hole dont even freaking touch!! I am so disappointed. I have been so busy and preoccupied. I used to live only for my weightloss but now I am a full time student, still a full time mother and do a little working on the side. I just have not been as focused as I once was on weight loss. I have gained back probably 15 pounds and I am feeling horrible about it. I guess I just need to buckle down and make it worth it again. I mean seriously, the jeans were like $20 (a lot for me) and they just hang in my closet to taunt me.

Ugh. Not trying to create a down post or anything. Just trying to get these feelings out before they set me off in the wrong direction. I am returning to this journal because I have left it alone for a while and I thought maybe getting back would help keep me on track. I thinkn I will get back to regular bloggin to keep it fresh in my mind.

I refuse to go throwing money down the weight watchers balck hole. I mean, it worked for me but it took a long time, it cost me money and time I dont really have and I GAINED IT ALL BACK! So I will just get back to what worked for me originally. ( after all, I have still maintained a 64lb weightloss).

I will recover.

In January I weighed 177 and had these follwing measurements:

January 1st 2008
Weight: 177lbs Now 174ish
neck: 14" Now 13
waist: 39" Now 38
bust w/bra: 42" Now dont know, dont care so much
under bust: 35.5" Now 35
right thigh: 23 7/8" Now 23 1/2
left thigh: 23.5" Now 23 1/4

So is it safe to say there has been change? Even though its very small?? Perhaps I will get back to measurements again.

I started this journal a long time ago to document and deal with my weight loss journey. I guess since I have almost reached my goal I havent been using it so much anymore. The truth is that I really need to. Otherwise I get lost and I have a hard time finding my way back...to losing weight. I still have a good 30-40lbs to lose according to the charts. However 70lbs ago I decided that I would be better off aiming for the 150 I used to be before I got pregnant for the first time. So now I have been stuck (like quicksand) at 174ish and I am sick of it. I am trying to get back into a regular "diet" and exercise routine now. Last week I started the week with intentions to workout 5 days. I made it to 4. Not bad because I also have gopne back to 45 minutes instead of the weakling 30 minutes I was telling myself was good enough for a while. So this week I am aiming for the minimum 4 days and if its possible I will do the 5. Lets not get hasty now! 4 should do the trick. According to my treadmill I am burning 390 calories each time so really it should be enough multiplied by 4.

Then I realized that I really need to work on my water intake. SO I am monitoring my water now. At least the 8 but I measuring by bottles of 24oz so I am aiming for 3 which is 9 cups. My eating has to improve if I am going to see any results. Lately I have been indulging right along with the kids on cookies and the like. BAD BAD BAD! Its not always easy to resist.

SO right now at this very moment I am sitting here typing away after a 45 minutes cardio session and feelign really good (and wet and sticky!) I have to admit I am forcing this on myself but I am getting back to needing to exercise to feel good at all. Its like no matter how bad I feel I know ahead of time that I will feel sooooooo good after the 45 minutes of cardio.

I may not journal every single day but I am making it part of my routine to keep this journal updated.

week 2 workout #2

This is going really great! I just got off the treadmill literally (still sticky from sweating) and I have just got to say if anyone is interested in adding something to their routine this couch to 5K is the thing to add! Its keeping me interested and getting me to a place I have never been. I can jog! For more than 15 seconds and not feel like I am going to die!!!!!!!!

As for weight loss, its going but I am still slowly adding more and more to my routine and only slowly is this weight coming off at this point. I am trying to focus more on healthy eating and getting my body fit with a variety of excercise and the weight just has to start cooperating and come off.

EXCITED!! I am charging the ipod and getting ready to hop on the treadmill to start the second week of this jogging program. Last week was great. I worked out the 3 days with a day break inbetween. It wasnt hard at all. I am sooooo looking forward to the next step in this.

My scale isnt changing fast but its changing. I was up to 176 a few weeks ago and now my scale is leaning more towards 173. Slow but steady I can deal with. The ULTIMATE would be to reach my 150 goal by my birthday but honestly I can live with even just getting into the lowest of the 160's by then.

Going well. I have done the first weeks workout but in a very inconsistent way so I am holding on and doing it for the rest of this week. By Sunday I will be on my may to the next phase of the program. I am looking forward to seeing if I can handle the increase in jogging time with every phase. So far its nothing that kills me but its still the beginning! This jogging training is really making me feel good I have to say. Its definately what I was looking for.

well, MArch 15th came and went. I have worked out 7 days out of 14. I am having a harder time with eating. I lost nothing so I havent met my goal. Sucks. I have recalculated my calorie needs to be somewhere around 1350ish which is going to be hard for me. I dont htink I will progress any further without either upping the exercise a LOT or dropping my calorie needs to 1350 and STICKING TO IT!

This shit is beating my ass day by day. I cant hardly stand it anymore. I am close to my personal goal weight but very far away from medical chart ideal weight. Its making me insane.